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11-09-2014
Flooded
with grievance for so long, and now finally exploded.
I shouted to God crazily and
tears flows down like a river.
Me : My God, why all these unfortunate
matters happened to me?!?! Why why why??? Do You know how desperate am i? Did
You ever love me?! Why can’t You bless me like You blessed others?!
God : My girl, how could I not love you? Am I
not treating you nice enough?
Me : What?!?! i didn’t get hostel AGAIN!!!
I been trying for so long!! See what the place I stay now? I even didn’t have a
proper bed to sleep!
God : Not only you didn’t get hostel. Some
of my childs facing the same problem, just you didn’t notice it. Unless you
still have a tilam, unless it is still a tilam, ain’t?
Me : I can’t bath properly! The bathroom is
so dark and small! Lotsa filthiness inside!!!!!!!!!! I could not turn my body!!
I could not wash my body clean!!! I am sucked!!!
God : Do you know African can’t even bath
once till they die?
Me : I didn’t have a table to study, I
didn’t have a chair to sit, I could not study properly!!!
God : But I had given you a brain to study.
Me : Here is so far to UMS!!! Waiting
school bus is like waiting a gold drop from the sky!! Damn wasting my time!! I
didn’t have a car go to school!!
God : But I had given you a pair of legs.
Me : Then WHY You given him a car? WHY You
given her a hostel? WHY they were so enjoy? WHY they were so peace? WHY they
were so rich?
God : Because I have a plan for them.
Me : I am dull. I am sad. I am lonely. I
am hopeless. I am depressed. I am weak. I am tired…
God : When you are broken hearted, I am close
to you. As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart.
Me : I have nothing… NOTHING!!!
God : But you still have ME. I never leave
you alone. I will neither forsake you nor abandon you. Now and always, I offer
you more than your earthly father ever could. One day I will wipe away every
tear from your eyes. And I will take away all the pain you have suffered on
this earth. Just be patience and
grateful. Stand up and move on! I am able to do more for you than you could
possibly imagine. I love you, my girl.
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